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18th June 2017

9:17pm: Issues
I am feeling annoyed with my boyfriend because he always has to mention that there are women at work that are interested in him. He wonders why I'm paranoid about him leaving me yet he has no tact about that topic. It doesn't help that i already feel like I'm not good enough the way it is. I would love to sic my sister on those bitches. I will not let it dlide again if it comes up one more time. I don't need to put up with that shit. I hope he just leaves that job real soon.
Current Mood: annoyed

11th April 2017

4:15am: How I Feel
Lately I feel like my boyfriends roommate has been acting like a whiney little bitch.  Yesterday I was waiting for my boyfriend to call or text me to let me know it was ok to go over there.  I waited till 4pm to hear from him but he never called or texted me so I figured I wasn't going over there.  Well, wouldn't you know it he texts me an hour later to say " Sorry can't come over ok."  Definitely needs to work on his grammar. I was pissed off for like two hours after that.  How was I supposed to take that. I hope I can go over there today. I will pissed off if I can't. I might just have to tell him I will not be going with him to his moms this weekend if that happens. Relationships are so much work, you should get paid for being in one. Just like I think you should get paid just to look for a job since it takes so much time and effort.
Current Mood: cynical

6th March 2017

4:57pm: New Things
I am now currently in a relationship with a very good man who I intend to spend the rest of my life with. I hope to married to him one day and that we will have two children. I want to have a little boy and girl. Now though I am feeling like no one that my boyfriend knows has fully accepted us as a couple. He told me yesterday that we were only allowed to date but not ever get married. I would like to say that his mom has grounds to make that kind of decision on his behalf. I am starting to feel like I am not good enough for him if I have to keep proving myself to everyone he knows.  I want to get a job and move to Buffalo as soon as possible. I am tired of his roommate and as of now I don't like him a whole lot. I have ample motivation to get this done fast.
Current Mood: annoyed

23rd September 2014

10:22am: Hi!
Once again it's been a while since I have left anything om here. I sear I have to set aside time to do this daily. I think it would help to get it all out every once and a while. I am in college once again trying to study to be an Admininstrative Assistant this time around, but I am not quite sure if this is what I want to do for a career.  I think I would like to do something like Medical Coding and Billing. I would maybe even want to try something in a more creative field.  I am so glad I have my own place now.  I would like to eventually move back to Buffalo.  As nice as Willmar is I just would like to be closer to my family.  I have lots of time in my life to be far away. That is all for now I hope to write more later.

19th February 2014

4:48pm: My thoughts
It has been a while since I have posted an entry here.  I would almost think there was dust on this journal if it were a book and not computerized.  My life has gotten better, its hard for me to believe but it has. I am now in College AGAIN, and I have my own place, AGAIN!!!!  This time I am going to do things right.  I hope to have a good job so I can keep my nice place and then eventually move on to the career I want.  I LOVE my classmates they are so fun even though I am older than them i can still relate to them.  I think this time around my College experience is MUCH better.  I have joined a club too, I am in the Multicultural Club and I LOVE it.  Its what I LOOK forward to during the week.  I am hoping to start typing on here on a daily basis but that will d epend on my schedule.  That's all for now, till next time.
Current Mood: content

22nd April 2012

3:02pm: Still No Change
Its 2012 and I still have no job.  I don't have a place to live either I am stuck living with my aunt Jody and my dad and I am starting to wonder if I am ever going to live on my own again or at least have a better roommate.  My friend Shanna is annoying me a lot lately. She is the 4th to last person I want to ever live with.  I realized I have no friends that can help me and it is soooooooooooooooo sad. I swear it is so pathetic it makes me want to scream.  I know there is still time for things to get better before 2013 starts but it is still frustrating that nothing has changed for the better yet.  I am hoping things get better soon because I really need some positive energy now.
Current Mood: bored

5th January 2012

6:38pm: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Have a fun filled day!
Current Mood: artistic

2nd January 2012

7:38pm: Writer's Block: Thank You Month
I say thank you all the time when it is appropriate to. I am always polite in that manner. I like to think that all people are that way but unfortunately that's not the case.
Current Mood: busy

31st December 2011

2:42pm: Writer's Block: Don’t look back in anger
Do you have any regrets from this year?
Yes I do.  I regret not having achieved anything great. I was hoping to make something of my life in 2011.  I guess I have to try in 2012.  New year for me so I hope new things will happen for me. The one thing I really regret is not getting a job, so I hope that works out for me in 2012.
Current Mood: apathetic

29th December 2011

3:08pm: Writer's Block: Bare necessities
I can't live without air, water, and my movies. If I could pick two more items i would have said internet and TV. I bet some other people put weird answers.
Current Mood: blank

21st December 2011

9:10pm: Writer's Block: Bah Humbug Day!
Take a deep breath. Now rant about something.
I hate the fact that I do not have my own place and that I am always depending on everyone for financial aide. I am 31 and i have nothing to show for mt pathetic existence and believe me I have been trying to get a job but it has been slow going with no results.  I feel like everyone around me treats me like I am a child who knows nothing.  It is so depressing. One day I hope they will realize that i am very smart and mature. I just want a little respect and to acknowledged the way I feel I should be. Life can be such a hassle and it's like you have no control half the time. It's so frustrating.
Current Mood: aggravated

17th December 2011

12:11am: Writer's Block: B.Y.O.B. Holidays
If you could solve one problem in the world, what would it be? One random answer will win a $50 Amazon gift card. [Details here]

11th September 2011

4:45pm: Writer's Block: 9/11
Where were you?
I was sleeping and when I woke up i heard about it from my family. How messed up is THAT!!!!! I was sleeping when that tragedy struck. I swear I sleep through everything. I do feel sympathy for those who lost a loved one and how they still feel the pain and sorrow though it has lessened over time but it is still there and always will be even though it dose lessen more and more with time.  I am hoping we will have no more attacks but should there be more we are in fact ready this time around. Can't believe its been 10 years since that happened where does the time go.
Current Mood: content

29th March 2011

5:58pm: Writer's Block: Stories of old
Who is your favorite mythical creature/character, and why?

I would have to say I have more than 1 favorite. I llove Unicorns, Fairies, Mermaids, Goddesses, and Pegasus. They represent all that is good.
Current Mood: content

12th May 2010

9:13pm: Writer's Block: Sheldon and Penny 4ever!
If you were 12 and could see yourself now, do you think you'd be happy or disappointed, and why?

I love fanfiction and I feel like I can't get enough of my favorites.  I like fanfiction because you can take what you already know about a movie, tv show, book ext. and make your own story line of it and I just love how some are written.
Current Mood: blank

25th February 2010

8:47pm: Writer's Block: Fuzzy friend
If you could have any fictional creature from a book, film, or TV show as your pet, which one would you choose, and why?

If i could have a pet I would like a Unicorn like in the movie Legend.  I love Unicorns, too bad they are not really real.
Current Mood: crappy

7th January 2010

6:10pm: Writer's Block: Sunrise, Sunset
Could you spend the rest of your life with someone who had horrific taste in music? How important is it to you to share your love of music with a good friend or romantic partner?

I think about what I am going to do for the day and if it will be better than the day before. The last thing I think about before I go to sleep is if the next day will be even better.  Both responses have some similarity to them.
Current Mood: blank

5th January 2010

6:09pm: Writer's Block: What do you want to do before you die?
What do you want to do before you die?

I would like to have been married and have at least travelled to 3 different places.
Current Mood: complacent

26th December 2009

10:55pm: Writer's Block: BFFs
Who is your best friend and why she or he is so important to you?

Shanna E. Daughrty is my best friend.  She is the most important person in my life because I can trust her and rely on her to be there for me when I need someone to talk to. She can also keep my secrets safe should I tell her any.
Current Mood: crappy
10:45pm: Writer's Block: Entertainment Center
How has technology changed the way you watch movies and listen to music?

I watch movies on a DVD player now instead of a VCR.  I listen to downloaded music that I will someday get onto a ipod when I get one, so that is how technology  has changed for me.
Current Mood: crappy

24th December 2009

5:14pm: Writer's Block: Friends for a Day
If you could hang out with any movie character for a day, whom would you choose as your sidekick?

I would love to hangout with Alice from the movie Twilight.  Her character is so cool and I thinkwe could hit it off and become best friends.  We would go to the Mall and do all the fun stuff irls do. That would be the best day of my life.
Current Mood: cynical

5th December 2009

10:02pm: Writer's Block: The Evolution of My Internet
How has the Internet evolved to meet your needs since you started using it?

There are more web browswers to use as well as all the different e-mails you can have as well as a journal online. I have to say the Internet has come a long way since it started in the 80's.
Current Mood: content

4th October 2009

6:30pm: Writer's Block: Who's your BFF?
Who is your oldest friend (i.e., the friend you have known the longest)? How often do you see or talk to each other? Do your close friends tend to stay the same year after year or change over time?
My best friend that I have known the longest is Shanna Daugherty.   I see her at least once or twice a week at least.  My friends are the same year after year unless I make a new one or two.
Current Mood: content

3rd June 2009

3:12am: Writer's Block: Place of Residence
My dream house would be a 2 story house with 5 bedrooms and 4 bathrooms. One of the 5 bedrooms would be a Master Suite with its own bathroom and a nice walk in closet.  All the bedrooms will have a nice walk in closet but the Master Suite will have the biggest walk in closet.   A huge kitchen with all the newest modern appliances and a center island as well as a breakfast nook.  The architecural  style of the house will be like that of a work of art. The family room will be big with lots of room for furniture and maybe a game room since it will be in the finished basement. There would also be a sitting room for when guests came over as well as a huge deck area for such events as parties and family get togethers. It will be located in a warm state.

Here is a link to what my dream house looks like: http://www.floridadreamsvillas.com/openrealty/listing-watersong-dreams-23.html

Current Mood: silly

16th May 2009

12:22pm: Writer's Block: You Ate What?
What's the weirdest thing you've ever eaten? Would you eat it again?
I have never eaten anything weird.  If I can't identify it I will not eat it.  
Current Mood: bored
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